Bawal pala akong magpost sa twitter and facebook until… di ko alam. HAHA.
Anyway, fvck talaga tong nararamdaman ko. Nasusuka na naman ako. Same feeling after ako nagSB nung Saturday. <////////3
Body, why you not cooperating with me?!
BROKE AND BROKEN. HAHA.
LATEST ADDICTION! <3
Happy for you. Really. :)
BACK OFF, ASSHOLE.
Nagkalat na naman ang mga malalandi sa mundo. Okay lang naman lumandi eh. Pero sana kung lumandi ka, siguraduhin mong wala kang syota. PERO IKAW, exception ka. Nakabalandra na nga sa buong mundo na in a relationship ka, nakikipaglandian ka pa rin sa iba. At sana naman nararamdaman mong, ayaw kitang kausapin diba?!?!!? TSSS.
THEREFORE, STOP CALLING ME. STOP TEXTING ME. STOP BOTHERING ME. Masyado na kong stressed sa buhay ko kaya wag mong dagdagan.
Ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang ganitong pagod sa acads. SOBRANG WALANG KATULAD. Sa sobrang stress na naramdaman ko, nagrant na ko sa nanay ko which never ko pang ginawa sa buong buhay ko. UGGGH. Matapos na sana tong sem na to. AT SANA MAPASA KO TONG MGA SUBJECTS NA TO!!!!!!!!
PLUS, di pa nakikicooperate ang maarte kong katawan. Vomited twice tonight. Ang shet lang <//////3 Hahayyy life.
Anyway, bago na yung tumblr ah. HAHA.
1. Hang out with other depressed people. I know that misery loves company but unless you want to be residing in the bell jar for an indefinite period of time, I suggest surrounding yourself with positive, uplifting people. Sitting around with your friends and commiserating about how awful your life is like eating a bunch of candy: it feels really good for a second but then you’re like, “Ew, I feel sick.”
2. Be in denial about the fact that you’re depressed. Contrary to what you might think, sobbing in public at 3:00 in the afternoon is not “LOL, weird!” It’s scary and it’s something you should pay attention to. How can you ever expect to move past something if you can’t acknowledge that it’s there in the first place?
3. Drink. When you do that, you’re like an ant and the booze is the magnifying glass. YOU ARE GONNA FRY, BABY. Drinking is for happy times, stressed times, vacation times, sexy times. It’s not for devastating times.
4. Do drugs. Although it’s tempting to take your feelings and be like “Bye!”, doing drugs to escape just takes you to another darker place than where you were to begin with. Hello, haven’t you seen Intervention? I don’t want you to be walking on THAT kind of sunshine.
5. Call your ex. I know you’re feeling vulnerable and grasping at straws to talk to someone who “really knows you” but that phone call has a price that you can’t afford to pay. Put the phone down and pick up a bottle of Valium. (I mean, oops, don’t do drugs.)
6. Retreat into your room and ignore all of your friends. That can be fine for a minute but then your room will start to resemble an insane asylum and you’ll really start to lose your crap. Plus, no man is an island! If you’re going through a tough time, talk it out!
7. Look at yourself naked in the mirror. Don’t ever do this if you can help it.
8. Wallow in it for too long. Don’t kiss your depression. Don’t tell it to “call me maybe.” Don’t give it a handjob. Kick it the hell out of your brain.
9. Eat a ton of crappy food. Because then you’ll just wake up feeling sick and fat. WHAT’S UP, MORE DEPRESSION.
10. Have empty sex with an asshole stranger. Unless the sex is really good. Then it could be nice for 2.5 seconds.
11. Google “Paris Hilton” and look at pictures of people who have more money than God. Just because life isn’t fair doesn’t mean we have to remind ourselves of it.
"You should be with someone who values your time and calls when they say they are going to, who shows up on time to a date or texts you if they are going to be late. Spend your time with people who aren’t too important to look up from their phone and stop texting when you are speaking or who know not to answer unimportant calls when you are together. Someone who politely apologizes for taking that important call and knows who to pick up for. Someone who also knows that their parents and their grandparents are important in their life, too, and has a good enough relationship with their family to pick up when they call. Someone who still tells their mother or father “I love you,” even when they are in public, and who can’t wait to tell you, when the time is ready.
Date a person who is chivalrous, not as in “into patriarchy, paternalism and/or oppressing you” but as in someone who isn’t afraid to show they care about you. No matter your gender, be with someone who wants to open the door for you, just to smile as they watch you walk through it, and someone who lets you do the same for them. Someone who will pull out a chair for you or stand up when you leave the table, not because it’s expected of them socially but they want to show you how much your company means to them. Someone who wants to walk you home, not only to make sure you are safe but also because they want to spend more time with you and smile at you as your smile disappears behind the door. Someone who will wait up to hear you got home safe if they can’t walk you home and will ask you to walk them home, because they want to feel protected by you, too.
Seek out a mate who isn’t afraid to hold your hand or put their coat around you when you look cold, who knows that Public Displays of Affection aren’t as important as knowing you are cared for, even in small ways. Put your energy into a person who puts their energy and effort into you, someone who will buy you flowers if you like flowers or knows exactly what book you would want on your birthday. Someone who has listened to your opinions, your hopes and your desires enough to know the things you like and the things you don’t like, the correct ways to show you they care. Someone who knows to ask when you want to be held and caressed and when you want your space, when you want to have sex and what consent is. Someone who knows how important the word “no” is.
Date a person who tells you nice things about yourself and builds up your confidence but challenges you when you need to be challenged. You deserve to be with those who know when to argue and to call you on your bullsh-t, but also know when signals from you tell them to leave you alone and let it be. Someone who won’t let you go to bed angry and is willing to talk about what’s bothering you, if even what’s bothering you doesn’t quite make sense or seem that important to them. Someone who knows that personal relationships aren’t as simple as who is right and who is wrong, that your opinion and perspective are valid, even when the two of you totally disagree. Someone who knows you aren’t always right and they aren’t always right but are willing to affirm the person your belief system, because your opinions are a part of the person they adore.
Spend time with people who don’t make you choose between being friends and being lovers, who you feel like you can genuinely have fun and be comfortable with. You need to be able to be casual, hang out in your pajama pants and be like buddies sometimes, while also valuing the romantic side of your connection. Someone who (when you get that far) understands what balance is in a relationship, that sometimes you need to go out and do your own thing. Someone who trusts you to make your own choices and to come home and be with them at the end of the night without the need to interrogate you, or if you are in an open relationship, someone who always trusts that your connection is stronger. Someone who gets that being together and waking up together every day is a choice, one you have to continue to make and continue to commit to.
Date someone who wants what you want, who is open to the idea of the relationship you desire with another human being. You need to be with people who are open to what you have to give to them and are willing to match it. Someone who has communicated enough on the subject to know what you are looking for with someone, whether that be a fling, friends with benefits or a person to bring home to your parents or chosen family. Someone who isn’t afraid to give you what you want in life but also respects themselves enough to have standards and value what they need and deserve in this relationship (or even friendship!) Someone who isn’t afraid to let you know how they feel: about you, about life, about what’s important to them, about the future or about whatever is on their mind.
Life is short, so you shouldn’t waste it on someone who doesn’t understand you, refuses to try and get you, won’t put in the time for you, who is rude to you, your friends or to other people and doesn’t even call you. Don’t worry about if they read, if they don’t read, if they watch movies or if they’re into the wrong kind of music; worry about whether they care that you do. Details are important, but if the world ends this year, it’ll be more important to say you wasted the time you have left with someone who cares.”
And the story of us looks a lot like tragedy now. THE END.
HAHAHAHA. Can relate!